just came home..
wanted to blog about all the funny stuff tht happened the past few days
but suddenly i feel so..rotten.
like rotten apple discarded in a corner.
argh. me and my crap. hate it.
turning 16 in like, 2 hours.
sure doesnt feel like it.

lets see
no.1 my best friend is like, whoosh, all around the world but here.
no.2 unlike prev years, im celebrating with my FAMILY on the day itself and friends post the actual date. PLUS, no pre celebrations, as you can see. instead, i had an ah soh session consecutively for the 2nd time with sq..it was fun and we kpt laughing at ourselves but we werent exactly having an ah soh celebration..and im talking, or rather, typing to the comp like a deluded moron at this point in time. anw not like thrs anything wrong with my family. i love my aunt and all but my cousins and uncles?? i see them like, 5 times a year. and ths is so..elementary school. i can foresee stilted conversations. oh joy.
no.3 im trying to be in denial but thr's a sinking feeling deep down because i knw everyone wldve already forgotten. (and also busy celebrating with other people who just have to be born on the same day as me..thus needless to say, painting a clear picture as to who is, yknow, more important to them..but whatever..)
no.4 sweet sixteen is actually supposed to mean something.
no.5 the thing is, i dont even feel loved.
no.6 and i really dont think huang weiting actually knws the days as they fly past so she probably wont bother (as usual)
no.7 so ysee im like, so happy right now i could burst in tears.

okay ths is too depressing for further continuation.
so you see, this is really
great. i have a sense of foreboding ths year isnt going to be exactly rosy and happy at all. every year gets increasingly crappy. no wonder like the apple, i rot more and get discarded more as time goes by.
whatever.